My loves.

So, Valentines day is right around the cornner. im ok with that. right now i really am not in the mood for men or a boyfriend. im gettin a new phone for v-day from my mom. :) also i have found my camera so ill be making videos soon! yay!!! i miss all my girls that watch my vids. i have a few looks coming. not sure im going to do a valentines day look. i did one last year.  i am kind of really excited to start back up! ill ttyl ladies! im off to bed!

Hey Ladies!!!!!!

      So if you are reading this, Thank you! Im just going to ramble on about what has kind of been going on in my life. So Like my last blog said. My heart is kind of broken. I have been trying to put myself out there and really meet some one but every time i do i just get scared. Anyone else in the same boat? It kind of feels like a rut. So that is just what i am going to call it. Lets see where do i start. After i had all the problems with my tooth. I had it taken care of. I had a root canal done and a crown put on. Yeah a bit costly. I don't really have a lot of money either. Thank God my mom said she would help me out with that. Also i am trying to sign up for a few health insurance things. I really hope that i can get it because it would really help me out.

     I have been so stressed out as of late. My sleeping patern is screwed up. I dont get many hours at work. which sucks when i actually need money right now!!! However there are some positve things i have going for me right now! :D Yay for the good stuffs!! I am going to be in my 4th show! Yes i do acting on the side from my job. If you didn't know i am a sales associate for a clothing store called maurices.

     I got a lot of nice things for Christmas! One im most excited about is Kinect for my xbox! now i can kind of work out without having to leave my house. I also got a very nice picture of my best friend Chantelle in the mail. She is serving her mission (she is of the Mormon faith) i am so very proud of her. Since i am totally obsessed with hello kitty i got a few things, a purse, ring, computer sleve protector thing and a cooling fan for my laptop to sit on. OHH i also got some awesome glitter pens too!

     Aside from getting kinect for Christmas i have been trying to eat healier. not really trying to lose weight just watcing what i eat and working out to stay and get fit. I am totally out of shape! Found this out when i went snow boarding last weekend with my friend and my cousin.  I know that snowboarding isnt easy but id just like to get a little more fit.

     New years eve we had a get togeter at my cousins house. That was a lot of fun. Family came from Illinois to visit, we played just dance on the Wii allllll night. we had a few drinks. Yes i am old enough to drink!! The day after on New years day i started to feel sick.. i got a bad cold. im still kind of now getting over it! Can you say EWWW! Maybe i should have gone to the doctor when my mom told me to but thats just more money i owe places that i cant pay for :(. Can you tell im stressed!!!  well thats all for now unless i can think of something else to talk about!

 XOXO
Jenneh

I had to let him go.

So lets start this as a story.

 When i was in my first year in high school, I saw this boy. He walked by everyday and i gazed at him everyday. It took me a whole school year to find out his name. When year books finally came out, i looked for the hallway cutie and finally learned his name. Sophomore year came around and again i saw him every day this time i knew his name.

   However i didn't do anything but just stare at him every time i Saw him. Junior year came around and he had gotten a lot taller and way even more cute. Still like an idiot i stared but I did manage to smile at him when/if he looked at me or in my direction. like a coward i never even spoke to him that year. Finally senior year came around
i said hi to him .... Hi.. thats all i could get my self to say was hi or hey. I wanted so badly to ask him out or to hang out or something. I very very much regret not doin so.

  I moved away the day after i graduated high school. I was seein someone at the time but it wasnt the guy i had my eye on all four years of High school.
i dated him for almost a year and things ened badly and we no longer speak.
i wont go into detail bec he is not what this story is about.  this story is about my high school cutie lol. anyways. He added me on facebook and we started talking a lot. yeah now we talk. now that i moved like 300 miles away. He then tells me he liked me also in high school but was too shy to talk to me or ask me out. yeah.... i was speachless. i didnt know that he knew i even was alive. .

   So he finally tells me that He was signed up for the Army. This made me really upset. He went of to Florida and Arizona he finally came back from school. still havent seen him since high school. Some how.. I had fallen in love with him. We talked a lot. and i mean a lot. Facebook, AIM, MSN. we even video chated so we could see eachother, when we spoke we talked for hours on end. We even talked on the phone, and his voice was like music so soothing and i loved to hear it. He was the sweetest guy ever. he made me feel so special and like some one cared.

   We have talked for 5 years. His Last g.f apparently there was a bad relationship with her, he called her a bitch and i guess wasnt fond of her anymore. but honestly didnt really bring her up often. Now, recently he told me that he didnt want a relationship bec hes scared of getting hurt again, and that he would rather go fight in afganistan than be in that place again. This made me cry. The man i fell in love with prolly got over me .... in prep to goin overseas, there was like a month where i shut everyone out, so maybe he just fergot about me.

  now im left with this broken heart trying to move on. It seems im stuck on him. I think about him every single day. We still talk i dont want to lose him at all bec hes great as a friend. its just hard to get over someone that you think about constantly.  I guess that its just best that way then in no way at all.  but knowing someone cant or wont return feelings its really heartbreaking.

I am now tryin to get intersted in someone else that i kind of like. But he as well lives in the state i used to live in. I dont think that im ready for a relationship right now anyways. there are a lot of things going on in my life right now, i just need to focus on me.

  <3MakeupbyJenneh xox

Dentist ... eh .. im scared

 So Wed. i have an apntmt at the dentist.. im a little scared. Ive seen the same one since i was 3 to the age 18. when i moved to WI i didnt have a new one so now that i need one... im scared. i have no idea what they are going to do to me. that makes me even more nervous. i just hope it dsnt mess my plans up for work or for going to see harry potter with my friends on thrusday. well thats all for tonight.. <3 xxx Jenneh

Worst week ever!

So even the start of my week was not good. I worked sunday. Monday i had off. and i thought i should go and try the new chicken flat bread from Taco bell. I should have learned my lesson back in grade school when the whole school got sick from it. and and other time ive had it its made me sick. i spent 8 hours on monday being sick. sleeping and throwing up. that was not fun at all. so i spent my day off being sick.

Tuesday i went to work and when i was done with my shift my friend and i closed up the store. i looked at my phone and i saw a message from a girl i had gotten in a fight with last week. i had deleted her bec she was being mean and not a true friend, so she got mad and said a lot of hurtful things to me. i imagine she said them to make herself feel better.

 thing is i had to cancle plans with her for a party for a family member. she got mad and told me i was blowin her off like always. ive never blown this girl off before. she had it backwards. anyways. im pretty sure she is just mad bec she has no one else to take advantage of. but instead of dropping it like a mature grown up, she has to make all my friends i made at my old job hate me now and yell at me. how nice of her to turn my friends agianst me. some friends huh.

wednessday i went to work and everything was fine till i got home. i had some really bad tooth/mouth pains. so bad that i was crying. i woke up today (thrusday) my day off with no pain. gradually i started to feel the pain then all of a sudden it hurt so bad i was crying again. my mom told me to call a dentist... i havnt seen one since i moved here to WI in 2006 so how do i get ome fast on short notice? i called around finally the 3rd place i call tells me i need to go to the ER right away and get antibiotics and see what they can do for me before i can see a dentist.

so i try to make an apmnt at the doc and there are no openings, so i had no choice but to go in to the ER i was there for an hour and they gave me a shot in my but :( they also sent me home with 2 perscriptions. im starting to feel better now, i just hope ill be alright tomorrow for work.

Seccond blog

So, Lately I've been a little stressed. i have a lot going on in my life right now.  i' am in a play. which is my 3rd production since the summer of 09. its fun but its a lot of work.  Speaking of work, i have to take off a lot for this show, and i lose out on a lot of money. Money i need so i can pay bills and things i need. i guess that's what i get when i do 2 shows back to back. Another thing is that i' am 23 and i've been breaking out like crazy. it may be from stress idk. I also just got over a really bad cold. coughing a bit but its better than being stuffy and miserable.  So if you are following me here you must either follow me on twitter or your a subscriber of mine on youtube. I do have a contest which i will post a separate blog about. Today the packers played against the bears. The bears won :( 20 to 17 idk what happens. that's okay they will win the next game. Tomorrow i am looking forward to the new glee episode its going to feature songs of britney spears! so that's exciting.  i might miss it tho.. kinda just came to me, but maybe i can t-vo it.!  so my gold fish died yesterday, i gave him the proper funeral. i flushed him.... but today i went to brush my hair and i saw Woody (the fish i know what you were thinking.. you perv.) was floating.... i flushed him.. he went down.. My mom even used the toilet since i flushed him.. can you say creepy!? anyways as this blog comes to an end at 2:01 am until next time readers, as i say on youtube. Take care!
 <3 MakeupbyJenneh

Day one.

Hey everyone,  This is my first blog ever! I have my own channel on youtube. Im 23 years young, and i love makeup and clothes! I guess you can say im a girly girl. I grew up in a suburb near Chicago where i took Jazz, Tap, Ballet, acting, piano and guitar classes. I went to 2 diffrent catholic grade schools, and a public high school. I didnt start getting girly untill like my 2nd year in high school. I love theater and acting and music is also a big part of my life. I currently play piano, guitar, bass, and violen. i dont leave the house with out my phone, and my makeup bag. Right now im working at a clothing store called maurices, i worked at Kmart before hand and a little resturant before that for 3 and a half years. Im a people person and i love to entertain. Hanging out with my friends and spending time with my family is really important to me. Another way i like to express my self is through art. i love to paint draw sculpt and even color in coloring books. i have quite a few obsessions. 1. Hello Kitty, 2. Zac Efron and Jimmy Simmons (hmm relation to Richard Simmons??? good Q. lol) 3. I love love love the band Hey Monday, i love them so much that my hair is cut and colored and styled like lead singer and my idol Cassadee Pope. 4. I have so much makeup omgosh! i love watching videos and learning new things on youtube. My fav Guru is Xsparkage. (Leesha) and i think lastly number 5. Twilight... i admit yea i love it.